As Good As It Gets

Between me and Chris's Netflix viewing habits, the program has decided we like movies where "opposites attract". And by that they mean movies starring Jack Nicholson and human females. 

So last week I watched "As Good As It Gets" which you are forgetting is AMAZING. It's legit. It won 2 Oscars (Best Actor for Jack Nicholson, Best Actress for Helen Hunt) and was nominated in 5 other categories. So keep your precious judgements to yourself! 

I've been thinking a lot about love recently and one quote from Jack Nicholson's character, Melvin Udall, made my heart melt.

"I might be the only person on the face of the earth that knows you're the greatest woman on earth. I might be the only one who appreciates how amazing you are in every single thing that you do, and how you are with Spencer, "Spence," and in every single thought that you have, and how you say what you mean, and how you almost always mean something that's all about being straight and good. I think most people miss that about you, and I watch them, wondering how they can watch you bring their food, and clear their tables and never get that they just met the greatest woman alive. And the fact that I get it makes me feel good, about me."

I don't want kids or marriage (at this point). I'm not focused on an end-result. But one thing I'm absolutely positive of is that I want to be special to someone. I want one person who sees me as this gem, even if everyone else is missing it.

I like myself - I really do. And I believe I have the qualities that would make someone fall head-over-heals in love with me. That's not to say I'm the best person in the world. I haven't worn anything but workout clothes in a week. But I don't want the love of the entire world. I just want it from one person who isn't afraid to go all in and really really love me. And who is ready to be cherished hard in return. 

The stupid thing is, I don't think I really knew that's what I wanted before. Not in the logical, action-oriented part of my brain, anyway. And now that's I'm clued into that, it's easier to start making choices that benefit me and prevent me from saying "ummm... yeah that could work for me!" when it doesn't.

I'm encouraged. I know I get what I want; I'm just not sure of the timeline quite yet.