Between me and Chris's Netflix viewing habits, the program has decided we like movies where "opposites attract". And by that they mean movies starring Jack Nicholson and human females. So last week I watched "As Good As It Gets" which you are forgetting is AMAZING. It's legit. It won 2 Oscars (Best Actor for Jack Nicholson, Best Actress for Helen Hunt) and was nominated in 5 other categories. So keep your precious judgements to yourself!
I've been thinking a lot about love recently and one quote from Jack Nicholson's character, Melvin Udall, made my heart melt.
"I might be the only person on the face of the earth that knows you're the greatest woman on earth. I might be the only one who appreciates how amazing you are in every single thing that you do, and how you are with Spencer, "Spence," and in every single thought that you have, and how you say what you mean, and how you almost always mean something that's all about being straight and good. I think most people miss that about you, and I watch them, wondering how they can watch you bring their food, and clear their tables and never get that they just met the greatest woman alive. And the fact that I get it makes me feel good, about me."
I don't want kids or marriage (at this point). I'm not focused on an end-result. But one thing I'm absolutely positive of is that I want to be special to someone. I want one person who sees me as this gem, even if everyone else is missing it. I like myself - I really do. And I believe I have the qualities that would make someone fall head-over-heals in love with me. That's not to say I'm the best person in the world. I haven't worn anything but workout clothes in a week. But I don't want the love of the entire world. I just want it from one person who isn't afraid to go all in and really really love me. And who is ready to be cherished hard in return.
The stupid thing is, I don't think I really knew that's what I wanted before. Not in the logical, action-oriented part of my brain, anyway. And now that's I'm clued into that, it's easier to start making choices that benefit me and prevent me from saying "ummm... yeah that could work for me!" when it doesn't. I'm encouraged. I know I get what I want; I'm just not sure of the timeline quite yet.
On Thursday night, I celebrated my mom's birthday with her and my dad at Francesca's, an Italian restaurant in Streeterville. A pianist played throughout the night and near the end of dinner, my mom *casually* said she really wanted to hear one of her favorite songs, "Someone to Watch Over Me". My dad took the hint and pulled out a little cash to tip the pianist. Soon her song was on. It was all kinds of wonderful. Seeing a husband and wife request an old romantic song on a special night and hearing the music I associate with a more romantic time was such as pleasure - even if it was my own parents. I was taken aback by it, too. I'm not used to that sort of thing happening. Being able to request a truly beautiful song and knowing it's played just for you. The closest I've ever been is having "Mo Money, Mo Problems" played by the DJ at Interskate 91 in the 7th grade. Sometimes the problems and anxieties of the world can be over powering and exhausting. To have just a few moments where there's peace among people and good music in our ears was a real treat.
There's a saying old, says that love is blind Still we're often told, "seek and ye shall find" So I'm going to seek a certain lad I've had in mind
Looking everywhere, haven't found him yet He's the big affair I cannot forget Only man I ever think of with regret
I'd like to add his initial to my monogram Tell me, where is the shepherd for this lost lamb?
There's a somebody I'm longin' to see I hope that he, turns out to be Someone who'll watch over me
I'm a little lamb who's lost in the wood I know I could, always be good To one who'll watch over me
Although he may not be the man some Girls think of as handsome To my heart he carries the key
Won't you tell him please to put on some speed Follow my lead, oh, how I need Someone to watch over me
Won't you tell him please to put on some speed Follow my lead, oh, how I need Someone to watch over me
